... ?

Finally I get the school done.
Finally is now holiday..!
And also finally I'm alright..!

What to say..? One word, BORED..!
I don't know why,
Or maybe I'm too sensitive,,
But I always felt that you're avoiding me..?
Hope what I felt is wrong lar..
But, if you don't feel like chatting with me
Hope you don't force yourself.
Just let me know and I'm get out from your mind immediately..!

Now holiday, what to do..?
As usual, WORKING..!
But I'm cheating myself.
I'm not working, I'm playing..! Why?
I hope I know why too..

In the coming December,
Omg, my schedule quite full..!
13 - 15 Dec maybe going to Bukit Tingg,
16- 19 Dec attending to YES Camp(Hope you're attending too..!)
23 - 25 Dec going to Genting with Jovin and her friends..!
Upcoming event's still not yet confirm.
All these, not even one is regarding my studies..!
I don't know how.. I don't know how to face to those people who supported me..!
I'm so sorry..!

Nothing to regret..! Just hope to get what I wanted..!
Next year is my final year in high school.. And also my SPM..!
I don't target for A's, just for at least credits..!
Anything will help me? Tuition, attend extra classes, group study?
Argg.. I hope I can temporarily throw everything away..!
Just to concentrate my studies..!
My final year, I don't want to waste it..!

Nothing to say, I'm hopeless..! What else..?
Facing families problem, studies, relationship and so on,,!
PLEASE GET OUT FROM MY MIND NOW EXCEPT STUDIES..!

Everyone is facing book now,
But I don't even study studying yet.
What am I doing?
Aren't I supposed to study now..?
My result dropped..! Alright everyone say"Never mind, try your best next time..!"
But still, I don't feel comfortable now..!
Because I know I can do it, but just I give up on my self..!
Wth I'm doing..?
Everyone seems giving me chances,
But I was like, don't know to appreciate it..! =(

I don't feel happy when I have everything,
Because I feel that I've lost something is much important that what I have now..!
I've wasted my time, my energy just to get what I wanted,
And I lost-ed something which is about my future, worth it..?
I don't think so,,!

It's November now, I've wasted my one year..!
How about next year? No eyes see..! =__=