Untoldable feeling

I really don't understand how come things would become like this..
Everytime when you angry, you can ignore me whole day.
You always want me to care your feeling,
But did you ever care my feeling too?
As I mentioned many times, I hate the feeling being ignore by someone,
Especially someone I truly love.
It's hurt, it really hurt.
I couldn't find a way to expressed my feeling right now..
Feel like crying out loud.. :'(
What did I did wrongly, why do I get this punishment?
If you really do not have feeling on me,
I would accept it if you voice it out to me.
You told me you still love me but you do this to me,
You told others you do not have anymore feeling on me,
Now what the hell you're talking?
I do not know which one is true and which one is false.
I trusted you, but you betray me! And this is what I get in return!
You're no longer the person I used to know anymore,
You've changed, a lot..

So disappointed..
Why all my relationship ended up like this?
What is the problem?
Where is the problem?
Can anyone tell me?

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.

It's been long time I never updated my blog already..
Busy BuSy and BUSY~
Thought after SPM should be free,
Who knows I have to re-sit SPM due to not enought credits for college entry. ==
No choice lor.. First exam was failed too. Because never study also @@
Now coming 5th Nov is the final,
I only left one more month to go
But the feel of stress is still hasn't arrived YET!!
GOD bless me this time or I'm gonna failed it again?
Had fun celebrating Mid-Autumn Festival(Mooncake festival) yesterday(30092012), with mum.
We lighten up the garden with DengLong
Never eaten mooncake before 12am >< sad
But never mind, today go back eat mooncake as dinner :P hehe
Magically, after I broke up with that 14 year old little girl,
I'm now with a 18 year old(same age as me) very mature, very adorable, very lovely, very sweet, very intelligent, very talented, very crazy girl :P hehe
She named Eunice.
I seriously still have no idea and can't even believe that we're in a relationship until now!!
Oh my darling, how can this be happened?
Although we knew each other on Facebook, in ther other word, we hasn't met each other YET!(but soon)
And of course for sure, this is not cyber-love.
We phone each other everyday, Skype, whatsapp, Viber, Facebook, Message, variety of communication ways to keep in touch with her other.
Long distance relationship is not the problem for me as I know how to handle it well.
We need to compromise, communicate, and the most important is to have confidence.
So far, but not that far, we already be with each other for 4 months(annivassary on 29th May 2012).
We used to send pictures to each other in a week, with lots of poses.. Haha :P
I smiled and my heart melted when I look at her pictures.
She's sooooooooooooooooooooooooo adorable. Feels like wanna chubby her face :P hehe
A lot more posts coming soon(hopefully), as I have finally(not actually) appropriate a schedule.

And good luck to me and those who having an exam for the next coming days.

I'm back!!

Finally I managed re-claimed my account.

It was 2 years since ago since the last update

Time really flies..

So far, guess what have I done within this two years?

Studying, working, studying, working..

That's my busy life..

After PMR, then SPM, now re-sit SPM again..

As usual, I never started doing revision yet.

I always wanted to, but, the motivation isn't there for me..

Recently started back into relationship with someone.

Erm, not long ago.. Just one month.

Things goes smooth within this one short period

Thanks GOD, with the UPS and DOWNS..

Fortunetely, our relationship still remain unchanged.

Oh ya, forgotten to introduce, she named Eunice.

She is a very nice and kind person to me.

She's lovely and adorable too.

I never thought our relationship could be like this.

Being in love with her isn't my plan.

But now I'm planning to be with her after all..

Sometimes I felt I'm not as good as others.

I always make her jealous..

Maybe I'm too sensitive or maybe she is too sensitive.

But I'm now getting to know her more.

I don't hope much, let's just being serious once.

Let's hope for a better tomorrow.

Good night :)

22-11-2010

Guess what? Today supposed to be my offday..!
But I cancelled it because of something..!

Supposed to be a happy? I don't know..!
Forgot to bring my charger to work,
End up my phone running out of battery this morning..!
I then inform Kelvin to bring his charger.

Who knows, he delayed again..!
And I've waited him for more than 1 hours in MidValley.
I missed my dinner yesterday, and after I woke up
I straight heading to MidValley.

I was about to faint because haven't eaten my breakfast yet. =(
trying to call him, but my phone switched off,
Public phone is MidValley not working..
Finally I found one which is located in the other road side.

We then go to McDonald for breakfast plus lunch.
Spicy McDeluxe again, but I just ate french fries
Don't know why I felt full after eaten french fries

After McD follow by RedBox.
Checked out the pricing and then register..
At first was a little bit fun.
But after that he started changing this and that
And he vod all his songs,
What can I do?
After an hour, I then leave the room and let him sing alone.
I know is not a very good habit,
But I was not in the mood..!

Was texting with Jasmine,
Then walk into GSC Signature.
And I don't know why suddenly I walk to the counter
And ask" What are the movies is available now"
After all, I choose to watch UNSTOPPABLE.
But the movie starts at 1455
Then sitting in one of the cafe and continue texting with Jasmine while waiting for the movie start..!

He called up, and ask me where am I.
I lied to him and I said my mum is fetching me back..!
But he keep calling me back.
I don't feels like going back to accompany him,
Because I don't really feel happy while in the room just now.
I'm sorry Kelvin..! =(
But I hope you know why I do this.
The movie finished at 1700
Then rush back to work..!
Waited for bus for more then half an hour..

Haiz, today late again..!
Don't know how much will be deducted from my salary..! =(

I isn't worry about the salary,
But my behaviour, my attitude..!

Whole day moody just because of this..! =/

... ?

Finally I get the school done.
Finally is now holiday..!
And also finally I'm alright..!

What to say..? One word, BORED..!
I don't know why,
Or maybe I'm too sensitive,,
But I always felt that you're avoiding me..?
Hope what I felt is wrong lar..
But, if you don't feel like chatting with me
Hope you don't force yourself.
Just let me know and I'm get out from your mind immediately..!

Now holiday, what to do..?
As usual, WORKING..!
But I'm cheating myself.
I'm not working, I'm playing..! Why?
I hope I know why too..

In the coming December,
Omg, my schedule quite full..!
13 - 15 Dec maybe going to Bukit Tingg,
16- 19 Dec attending to YES Camp(Hope you're attending too..!)
23 - 25 Dec going to Genting with Jovin and her friends..!
Upcoming event's still not yet confirm.
All these, not even one is regarding my studies..!
I don't know how.. I don't know how to face to those people who supported me..!
I'm so sorry..!

Nothing to regret..! Just hope to get what I wanted..!
Next year is my final year in high school.. And also my SPM..!
I don't target for A's, just for at least credits..!
Anything will help me? Tuition, attend extra classes, group study?
Argg.. I hope I can temporarily throw everything away..!
Just to concentrate my studies..!
My final year, I don't want to waste it..!

Nothing to say, I'm hopeless..! What else..?
Facing families problem, studies, relationship and so on,,!
PLEASE GET OUT FROM MY MIND NOW EXCEPT STUDIES..!

Everyone is facing book now,
But I don't even study studying yet.
What am I doing?
Aren't I supposed to study now..?
My result dropped..! Alright everyone say"Never mind, try your best next time..!"
But still, I don't feel comfortable now..!
Because I know I can do it, but just I give up on my self..!
Wth I'm doing..?
Everyone seems giving me chances,
But I was like, don't know to appreciate it..! =(

I don't feel happy when I have everything,
Because I feel that I've lost something is much important that what I have now..!
I've wasted my time, my energy just to get what I wanted,
And I lost-ed something which is about my future, worth it..?
I don't think so,,!

It's November now, I've wasted my one year..!
How about next year? No eyes see..! =__=

Awesome Outing!!

Not bad Not bad!! Haha
Today was nice!!
Early morning go to bank,
Withdraw money ==

Then rush to IOI mall,
Because Shirwin they all say 10.30am meet up!!
Thought that I'm late,
Who knows Niro and Shirwin, and her friend more late!! Haha
Then we go RED-BOX sing K
Omg, at first I totally can't sing
Because I didn't sing song for a long time already!
Slowly slowly catch up.. Starting with some Chinese song,
Then English song, follow by Korean song..
But we only listen to Korean song, because don't know how to sing ==

Having our breakfast + lunch while singing.
I tell you, I takes 3 hours to finish my Nasi Lemak!!
No much special lor, as usaul
Coughing while singing, can't really sing also.
But not bad lar, at least still can sing.

After that we go buy lollipop..
Then me and Niro go back to Pavillion.
Wanted to watch RED, but I'm under 18
At last I watched Sammy's Advanture 3D
Not bad lar, but only have 6 people including me inside the cinema.
The movie finished at 8.00pm
Niro then accompanied me to monorail.

Come back around 9.30pm.
Then have dinner, with Paul.
We chit-chat until 11.30pm then back!

Today was so happy,
Because very long never meet Shirwin & especially Niro,
Today I wear YES Camp's shirt,
And she said she saw me in YES Camp,
But seriously, I really can't remember lor, so sorry lar.
At least now I remember which one is you already. Haha
Btw, your hair style is cute, I like it.
Also, I got another new sister!! Haha
That's what I really happy for!

Hope a better for tomorrow!

♥ Silent Night ♥

LOL,
What time now but I'm still ALIVE xD
Anyway, 30 Aug night I stay-ed up whole night,
Going to yam cha with Kervenne and Station one's friends.
Until 31 Aug morning 6.00am somehting.

We chit-chat
Two of them Shisha-ing, but not me >_<
And I'm not going to try it also.
Then we talk about our future,
Our daily life, Our experiences,
Ghost story, and so on.
What a nice gathering.

After fnish chit-chat-ing,
I supposed to accompany Kervenne back home,
But who knows the two guy follow us >_<
Then no choice lor, we walk together
Accompany Kervenne.

When almost reach her home that time,
I thought we're supposed to go back aldi one.
Who knows, we stay there and chat until early morning 7.00am
something.

Then I walk back to home ALONE :((
But it's alright, I used to it aldi.
When I reach home, NO ONE IS AWAKE YET :X
So I have to wait for them to open the door for me.
Around 11 something they only wake up.
Then I straight away go bath,
Watch TV for a while,
Then fall asleep already.

Until 8.00pm something only wake up!!
When I woke up, I saw Kervenne's msg
And she ask me to go Yam Cha again @@
I thought she'll say: Let's stay up all night again.
But lucky she didnt.
Cause she got school tomorrow,
And me supposed to hand in the letter to headmistress.
So we just stay til 11pm something.

I reach home at 11.30pm after I send her back home.
Chit-chat and play computer until now.

Was sad when I'm thinking of my phone.
Now I'm trying to get back all my data,
And I'm trying to get another new phone vert soon.
But I got no enough money now,
That[s why I go for part-time job during this holiday.
Hopefully can earn more money,
And get another new phone.

After this two week holiday,
Start schooling again,
Then follow by the Final Exam.
Seriously, I really got no eyes see my result.
But I'll try my best to achieve good result.

HOPEFULLY God would grant me wisdom
Bless me my study, my relationship and my friends & family.

♥ Recently ♥

Hoho, such a long long time I didnt keep my blog updated.
You know, recently was very stressful, many challenges to face.
As I got kick off of school because of some problems and
My attendance doesnt comes to the teacher's expectation.

After all the Warning Letter have been issued, It comes to the final,
Which is Buang Sekolah letter.

So now I have to re-register for school.
Its so troublesome to run here and there just to get the stupid signature done.
And then still have to counseling and so on.

On the July, I was actually working as a waiter at Station 1 @ OUG Citrus park.
I resigned end of the months. Until now I am doing nothing so far.
Until recently, some one pushed me up and ask me to get back to school ASAP.
Last Wednesday, I been to JPWP @ Jalan Duta there to get the Rayuan Letter,
Thought can done it the same day, who knows, still have to get so many peoples signature
Like headmistress, my parents, the Pegawai, and then the Saksi!

My Aunt do talk to me many things about the good and the bad if I'm going to give up my studies.
And I finally comes to the decission, I want to get back to school ASAP!
The school seems like willing to give me another chance, so I think there shoulnt be a problem.
Now they have done their part, so I do! I must put some effort on it too.

Seriously, this whole year, I didnt even study at all. Everyday attend to school,
But I don't even know what the hell the teacher is talking about.
That is because I got no interest on it. But now was different, because I already know how and
What is my future is going to be if I giving up my studies now!

My dreams has gone, my future has gone, life is meaningless.
I dont wanna be like this, I tell myself, once others can do it, I also can do it. Is just whether I want to do so or not.

It's enough, I've been wasted so much time for doing those useless things, now seriously is time to get me back into study before it too late. Do you think I can catch up?

I realised, and many peoples say so, my english sounds funny and I dont know why. Maybe I didnt read that much newspaper or story book or whatever, that's why. Once again, I'm sorry for my broken english.

Well, now all I hope is, can get back to school as soon as possible. This is what I hope so.

19/06/2010

Sooooooooooooooo long never update my blog aldi..
Because recently was too busy with many stuff..
Such as my exam, tuition and so on..

Before holiday I had my Mid-Term exam,
I think this time de exam maybe will drop
because I didn't concentrate while studying..
But I also hope wont drop, at least can past..

Then holiday..
Holiday,, nothing to do lor..
Just continue with my computer stuff..
Everyday also facing to the computer..
Facebook-ed, Email and others..
Face til my eye also paint aldi..

First week quite boring lar..
Just stay at home..
Last friday went out with my beloved tang jie Jovin..
Go to Kepong there meet her then bring her to Sg. Wang..
Quite boring also lar,, but I still very enjoy..

Then Saturday I miss-ed Uncle Danny's Birthday's Celebration..
But at least I have give him a call and wish him a Happy Birthday.
The Sunday is FHLCWA's 5th's Annivasary..
All Ex-Resident also come back and celebrate in Lammeeya.
And also celebrate Lammeeya's opening shop.
Quite a big function.. Meet lot's of old friend.
Althought some of them not be able to attend this gathering..
But still very fun lar ^^
take lots of pictures..
still not yet upload because too busy.. hahas

until now lor.. Just reach home..
Nothing to do >_<
I felt the time past so fast..
One more day then school reopen aldi..
That is so much for my two weeks school holiday :X
Haiz,, sien lor.. But was excited to see my result..
Expecially my Science.. hahs XD
Dunno can get A or not >_<
Hopefully can lar..

I want to sleep now..
Sooooo tired >_<
Good night all =)

25/04/2010

Been busy for the past few days..
erm.. feels so tired..
I think I'm not a active blogger any more..
Just feels like the past few days got many unhappy thing happeneds..
Like that day, I went back to BJ whack Simon..
I feel so relax after I whacked him..
because he keep disturb me..
then the next day my school's pengetua call me go to pejaba..
and ask me why I go to BJ whack ppl..
say monday go and see her again..
I also dont know what will happen on tmr..
hopefully nothing will happen lar..

erm.. I also dunno want to write what now ..
haiz.. nowadays I felt so bored..
when on facebook, but no one wants to chat with me..
I also dont' know what happen..
can anyone tell me pls?
when I was trying to call you all,,
but there is either busy or no answer..
everyone also the same..
what's the problem?
when I was trying to sms you all..
but there is no people to reply..
what's the problem?

I also dont' know how to express my feel now..
just felt bored like dying..

sometimes i really feels like want to cry..
but no matter how..
I also will try not to cry..
I do help ppl to solve problem..
but yet I dont' know how to solve my problem..
What a silly guy I am >_<
I know what I'm annoying
but I hope you all dont mind
because I'm not purposely one..
I just feels bored that's why I go round posting things to  people..
I'm so sorry..

No much things I can write..
And I also dont' know what to write now..
betetr sleep now,, tmr still got school..
hopefully tmr everything will be fine..
Goodnite everyone =)